It's time. It's time we take back our bodies and declare our independence from extra hormones raging through our system and reeking havoc on our emotions, sex drive, menstrual cycle, and bodies!
Well, ok- its time for me, anyway.
I've decided that after 10 years of being on birth control, that I can no longer stand having regular headaches, a low sex drive, and general unexplained moodiness. It seems that with every type of internal birth control I've tried, the only upside to using any of them is that I'm not getting pregnant. While that's sort of the point of taking birth control- I know there are other ways to avoid getting pregnant...without having to throw more hormones and substance into my mix than what I was naturally born with.
For me, I am embarking on the method of Natural Family Planning (or avoidance in my case) - involving the nitty gritty details of checking my temperature every morning, and the status of my *ahem* cervical fluid. If that was TMI for you, this blog may not be right for you and maybe you should go look into the shopping, celeb, food or sports blogs, k?
I am leaving birth control for now, because I've been too afraid to try living without it thanks to fear of the unknown/fear of getting pregnant. I feel like I've just had this shroud of cloudiness over me for a while, and I'm trying to figure out what variable in my life it could be....I'm going to point my finger at birth control right now, in hopes that by stopping it - I will be happier. Maybe that's not even the real problem, and maybe after a few months I'll find that I still have headaches often, and that I'm still moody...if that's the case, I'll probably just go back on birth control. I dont think its evil or anything, I just think that maybe its not working for me right now.
For now though, my blog is about my experience in going off of birth control and it's effects on my emotions, sex drive, and my headaches. You see, the biggest factor in my husband's and my decision to stop taking birth control is due to me having headaches for 60-75% of my month. It's not worth the pain for either of us. We decided that we'd rather use a barrier method like condoms and have me be actually interested in sex and able to have sex (no headaches) than have me on birth control with a low drive and in pain to boot.
Today is day 2 of my journey. It's Monday, and I would have taken 2 pink pills by now as I used to be a Sunday start. I'm pretty nervous about what my body is going to do and wondering how much it will really effect my headaches and em...drive.
I already feel pretty crazy and I have a slight tease of a headache. I feel like I could cry or just fly off the handle with out a moment's notice right now. I'm pretty sure a nice bath and a glass of wine would do me well. I heard that your hormones go nuts for a good month to three for most people...so I should expect high-end crazies for a couple of weeks, and it should slowly taper off to occasional crazies as time passes. Yay!
That's all for now. Stay tuned.
Crazily yours for now,
A Gal Seeking Freedom
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