Day 10, p2

Ok well, I wrote the one friend who's relationship I was most concerned with (that sort of set it all off this morning) and I'm going to leave it at that. I talked with another friend about how I was feeling in regards to my feared failing relationship with the other, and she said that if I've approached the gal with whom I was feeling distance, then I've done what I can do and need to feel secure in knowing I've covered my part. If she wants to continue the relationship, then she will. And if not, then I can rest assured knowing I tried. 

If there's one lesson I've learned in the last few years, its that I don't want to pursue some one who is not interested pursuing me. This was a good mantra to have in dating or in friendships. If they aren't in it, I'm not going to be either. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that when some one pulls away due to being busy/what have you - I don't just drop the friendship/relationship. Life gets in the way. 

Sometimes months separate me from my friends, but with the ones who are just as interested in me as I am in them - it feels like we never lost touch when we finally do talk. I'm saying, if after several attempts at communicating and seeing how some one is doing - if they aren't at least saying "hey! i'm here! been busy - lets get together/talk x...." there comes a line where you just have to let go and let it be. I don't know if that made any sense. I just needed to remind myself that its ok for things and for people to come and go. The ones who are true will always be there, even when i'm being crazy and insecure...because I know I'll be there for them when they get nutty, too. 

Aside from my bout of craziness this morning and my above rant, I'm feeling better.  

On a good note, I was pretty turned on this afternoon. I recently found out that the average woman's peek time of being turned on is at 3pm - ha! I fit right into that category! I am always raring and ready to go between 12-3:30ish. Its nice to feel turned on. There were many months for a while there where I could not muster the idea of anything sexual. Even if my head was in it, my body would not cooperate. It feels good to be feeling more alive and in touch with my body instead of feeling so removed.  

So now I'm just looking forward to Eric coming home so we can have dinner and a night together before I leave for Georgia in the morning. 2 weeks I'll be gone. Yikes! That's a long time with out Eric and without my girlfriends here who I love so much. I have a pretty solid feeling that I'm going to miss the weather, too ;-) It will be nice to see my family and to see my best gal in Florida, though. 

Ok, off to pick up the house a bit...the cutie is coming home soon and I want it to be nice for him!